I thought I'd just post a little post about my thoughts on life lately. Haha. That sounds so... hipster... or philosophical. Oh well. 

First of all, can I just say I wish my near future was a lot more like this photo: one narrow path and one possible outcome or direction. This trying to find a job is really stinking hard! Especially when you don't know what you want to do. I feel like there's this vast ocean of professions out there, but I don't know which one to pick! I wish, just for a little bit, that having majored in International Relations meant that I would be going into one specific field, one narrow path, and that I didn't have to spend so much time looking for it. That I would just follow the trail and come out where I was supposed to in the end.But I'm grateful life isn't like that. Because agency is a pretty great thing. At the end of the day, I want to be satisfied with what profession I have settled on and the path I took to get me there. It probably will not be straight, and the outcome will probably have been one of many possibilities.

Second, I've come to the realization that I have been looking at a lot of house stuff on pinterest lately. I think that means I want a house or an apartment of my own. I'm so done with the whole roommate/ you can't paint the walls or hang anything up phase. I want to be able to go to Helping Hands or some Thrift Store, buy some furniture with some really great bones and fix it up. Make it something really special that I can keep in my house for a long time. I want to print off all of these photos I've taken, put them in massive frames, or order some canvases of my photos and hang them, with a real nail, in my walls. To go to Lowes or Home Depot and pick out a paint color and make my walls colorful! I want to get everything out of all those boxes I have stored in grandma and grandpa's hanger and remember all the cool places I've been as I hang my stuff on the walls and set them out on shelves.

Lastly, I turn 23 in a few weeks.  Actually... less than two weeks. For some reason I keep thinking about how these are the last few years of my "golden year" (my birthday is June 22nd = I am 22 years old) and that I haven't done much with it. But I think that's a lie. I've done some pretty awesome things this year. First of all, I now have a Bachelors of Fine Arts in International Relations! And a minor in German! I have graduated from 18 years of schooling! I still haven't 100% decided whether or not I will go back to school. Part of me thinks, "No way! Never. Eighteen years was long enough!" But another part of me is thinking, "Well... then I wouldn't have to find a job. And maybe then I could do some internships over the summer that are only available to current students." Who knows? Like I said, the path I'm on is not a straight one with only one route. Second, I decided to come to Prague, all by myself! And it may seem like a cool thing to say that I came to Prague for the summer, but I think the best part, for me at least, is knowing that I did this by myself. Knowing I had no friends or anyone else I knew waiting for me in Prague, I did it anyway. And it wasn't that bad. So maybe this means I am growing up and can do scary things all by myself. 

As Benjamin Mee says "Sometimes all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage, and I promise you something great will come of it."